Have you ever asked God “Why Me?”
Have you ever thought, “I don’t have a clue how to get out of this situation.”
Or just summed it up, “God you have to perform a miracle to make _______ happen.”
Well I have been there, done that. I’m at the place now of waiting and needing endurance while sitting in this waiting room.
The word says, For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13 NLT) This lets us know that everything is possible and not to draw on ourselves to get through. I like to visualize God as that extra battery pack. He has the full charge to get us through. God wants to be the battery pack so that we remember to worship and share his glory. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. (Psalms 23:3 NLT)
There are traits you want to have to tap into this source: trust, humbleness, and a seeking heart. God wants us to depend on Him and he will provide for us. We just have to be willing to come.
Seek–Search for the Lord and for his strength; continually seek him. (1 Chronicles 16:11 NLT)
Humble–He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. (Isaiah 40:29 NLT)
Trust–But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31 NLT)
Once we have accomplished these traits and hand out situations over to God we gain a sense of peace and calmness—-just by trusting and loving The Lord.
I love you, Lord; you are my strength. (Psalms 18:1 NLT)38.939834 -77.027497
This weekend as I moved into my own place, I reflected on how I arrived here. I prayed for this place to become available and naively didn’t believe it would. I had the faith my situation would change but not what I asked for exactly!
I lacked unwavering and sound faith and was blindly walking into unchartered waters: The calm current of God’s love and Him providing for me.
Coming from asking a now fellow disciple to stay one night after only meeting her three times, sleeping in my car outside of Starbucks, staying with another new friend for a week who I had known only for maybe a month, going to a shelter for three weeks, and asking my same “new” friend if I could come back. I wound up staying with her for almost 3 months.
The tunnel was looking dim and bleak, however there was light at the end of the tunnel.
This has definitely been a journey. One of patience, hope, humbleness, faith, prayer, and trust.
To think back now on that prayer that was sent up and the blessing God has poured down, I am at a place of serenity knowing He heard me.
The word says, “You don’t have enough faith,” Jesus told them. “I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible.” Matthew 17:20 NLT
I can honestly say that is what I had, the faith of a mustard seed. I was a new disciple and did not know the power I possessed. ( I still don’t know the full capacity) I told my mountain to move and said what I wanted. God provided the rest! He actually provided more. Wow!
Luke 17:6 NLT adds, “The Lord answered, “If you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘May you be uprooted and thrown into the sea,’ and it would obey you!”
To actually see God’s word alive and living is astonishing.
To know that God fulfills his promises are empowering.
Thank you God. I marvel at your magnificence.
I’m speechless and at awe because of your love, grace, and most importantly mercy.
Hold on to me Daughter
Hold on to me God
Please don’t let go
It’s not that I don’t believe
but it’s like I have ADD
darting to and fro
Although it’s all things that glorify,
represent, and exalt your name
I don’t want to be a fan,
follower, or cheerleader
Most importantly I’m scared to bring you
I hear the murmurs now,
“Is she serious?”
“Why is she going to the extreme?”
“Just six months ago she was in the club
drinking, smoking, and crying over Kareem”
I’m hoping and can only imagine God’s response:
“Daughter you are right, six months ago that was you
but I wiped that filth off
you and made you clean.”
“Whether six months, six days, six minutes
you still chose me.
Run faster my love and
I will continue to give you
Who cares what they say? Not I
and I am the King. You want
to talk well Precious I am listening.
Cry, scream, vent, mumble, or sing
whatever you want to communicate
baby girl I am listening.
It will be alright. It will get
Trusting and believing in me is not
an easy thing. I know you are strong tho.
I built you stronger than
Give yourself grace it took
a while for you to get here.
I know who you are,
where you are, and
it is not a scheme.You long for me like
I have longed for you.
Don’t worry about other people just
Hold on to Me!
I know nowadays this sounds so cliche but why reinvent the wheel! It’s the truth. When we let him steer us and direct our paths it’s almost like taking a deep sigh and being content that you know everything will be ok. Just put our life on autopilot.
I don’t know how many times I have called on my mom over the years to help me fix something. I broke my Barbie’s leg. “Mommy!” My brother won’t share the remote and she’s gone out of the house. “Mom!” I totaled my car, fractured my back, have a collapsed lung, and need stitches in my foot. “Mother!’ I move out of state, my passenger window is broken, my wallet is stolen, and I start a new job the same morning. “Ma!” (You can add your own inflections and whines with each distraught call)
Although my Ma is Super and starting out as you can she, she had things under control. Eventually the problems outgrew her hands but there was always someone who had been in the Shadows, well in the light….. serving as kind of like her Professor X, go to person, …….the Oracle….but Greater.
From these lessons I have learned God wants us to come to him and ask for his assistance and guidance. “Ask me and I will tell you remarkable secrets you do not know about things to come” Jeremiah 33:3 (NLT). He wants to show us that we can only depend on HIm and the power He has. John 14:6 (NLT), Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”
Let me rewind….Jesus shares, ““Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me. There is more than enough room in my Father’s home.If this were not so, would I have told you that I am going to prepare a place for you? When everything is ready, I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am. And you know the way to where I am going.” John 14:1-4
I don’t know about you but I feel warm and fuzzy inside! I feel special! I feel loved! I feel secure. With expectations like this I can easily let go and feel comfortable in Him and in His promises.
No need to stress out Mom, no need to call the psychics, no need to keep driving and getting lost. God is more than willing and able to take over. I think once we can acknowledge and ACCEPT that concept, the hard part is over. Then we can slowly move one leg, let go of the wheel, move the other leg, and scoot over. The trip will go a lot smoother.
This brings me to my favorite scripture of all time, Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” That sounds so promising! Just believing in this as a foundational building block takes a load off!
So meditate on that for a while and visualize allowing God to take over.