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Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Many times we ask God is He there. We want to know if He is listening, does He hear our requests? Will He answer our requests? I say YES! YES! YES! I remember as a kid well shoot sometimes as an adult I have made crazy requests, ” God if you there let me win a million dollars” Most of the time though my requests are simple, like, “God if you get me out of this or that I promise I won’t do such and such again. Sometimes He comes through and other times He does not. All in all, I know that God hears….answers me… and wants me to listen.


Lately, I have been studying the story of Gideon. (James 6-8) For those that don’t know the short story is: Gideon was a young boy and God spoke to Him and told him that he would use him to deliver the Israelites from the Midianites. Gideon questioned God’s choice and told God he didn’t feel qualified. He asked God 3 TIMES to prove He would use him to save the Israelites. Each time God answered Gideon. God used Gideon just as He said he would and provided Gideon with the confidence he did not have.


God understands as humans He knows it is hard for us to trust or even fathom the thought that we are His children. But God says for us to come to Him in prayer and petition. (Philippians 4:6-  Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.) Just to think Gideon just knew He wasn’t who God said he was. (Judges 6:15-15 “But Lord, Gideon asked, “how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.) God was patient, reassuring, and confident in Gideon. God has the same love and compassion for us.


Each week at work I can think back and say to myself I don’t know how I made it through that week. I get an assignment an d have meetings and at the time at hand I’m so stressed out and confused I just know I will be fired before the week is up. But week after week I have made it through. It is only by the grace of God. I am learning my position from scratch so just like Gideon I did not feel qualified but God reassures me task after task, meeting after meeting. I don’t know where my current job is taking me but I’m learning while I can.


Additionally, i know God has called me to write. To write what I’m not sure. I know this blog is part of it but beyond that I am clueless. I keep telling myself that I am not the good or no one is reading it or it’s not changing lives. I have 50 million excuses. What I am realizing now is that I do it for me. It gives me that time to study, focus on God, and bring Him glory. As you can see my writing has been slacking. I used to post weekly but it slowly dwindled down. I know God has been telling me to sit down and do this and I finally have. The push has been other possible writing opportunities may arise so I know this is training for what is to come so i am being obedient.


He is calling all of us to do more….be more….help more….serve more…. and be more like Him. If we don’t feel confident enough in the task He is calling you to do remember (Isaiah 55:8-9- “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth,so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts) God adds, “…….So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.” God’s word is bond and does not come back void.


So walk boldly and confidently into what God has been telling you to do that you have been running from. For me it is has been this blog post and see I produced it!


Psalm 16:8-11: Power Up your inner strength

I know the lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me. No wonder my heart is glad, and I rejoice. My body rests in safety. For you will not leave my soul among the dead or allow your holy one to rot in the grave. You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures
of living with you forever. (Psalms 16:8-11 NLT)

After reading this doesn’t a sense of peace just wash over you? To know despite your mess and where you are now God is not leaving you to “rot in the grave.” God’s promises always set me at ease. His ultimate example of love, of having Jesus martyred for our sins, and then have Him rise from the dead makes me feel forever indebted. I can never do everything right but I can attempt to live righteously.

So even when I know I may mess up, I know He knew it would happen and has already provided a way out. Jesus says, “The Father alone has the authority to set those dates and times, and they are not for you to know.” (Acts of the Apostles 1:7 NLT) He knew when Judas would betray Him, and He knew would I fall as well. However as the bible is my instruction for life I try to live like a David as a woman after God’s own heart. As a child of God, I know He will pick me up when I fall. I know as a follower of Jesus temptation will come but I have an inner strength to tap into to see me through……. Have you tapped into your inner strength? Do you know you don’t have to be shaken because The Lord is with you? Do you trust God to show you the way?

What is Grace?

I heard of this thing called Grace

and everyone is talking about it.

They even have a song about it,

have you heard it Amazing Grace?


I long to get some of it but I’m being selfish

you have given me a taste.

But Father O God is it wrong to ask for a buffett?


You speak about greed and that’s a trait we shouldn’t have

but if you look in my heart

You are a mate I couldn’t have.


It wasn’t your choice but mines

because I wanted to act a fool

and push you behind.


I always knew there would come a time

when you would turn my head

It’s like that forbidden love that one’s heart

could never shed


But there is a difference!


You are giving it freely well,

What is the problem?

What can’t I see?


I say I surrender, all praises go to you, you have spared me,

shown mercy, delivered me, and

yet you still aren’t through


Lord what do you want me to do? Tell me and I will

Remove me from situations not to be tempted

so I can hear  only from you


I am begging for relationship like I have done so many times in this fleshly world

You said you were different and I can experience true love through you and your word

Well God you made me so you know what it takes to make nothing not shake me

I want you to wrap me in your arms and never let go

and I vow that in return I will share your goodness bringing more to the Kingdom letting all your righteousness show

Use me God as an example let me be the pawn, elevate me to the Queen with elegance and brawn.

You are magnificent my God thank you for showing your face.

Showing mercy on me.

now God where’s that Grace?



All credit belongs to this website. I found this months ago but it is still on my Bookmark and I read it from time to time.  Just wanted to share! Enjoy!


Where you are now, is not where you are going to be.  Be prepared to move as the Spirit leads.  Don’t become so complacent that you don’t want to accept change.  That is what the enemy will use against you, and use it he will.  You must refuse to allow the enemy to paralyze you with obstruction.  He hasn’t stopped you from moving forward, it’s only a delay and if you look closely it’s only in certain areas of your life. The areas you thought he would never strike, the areas you left unprotected.

All this has left you indecisive and uncertain of so many things. The fear of making the wrong choices has slowed  your pace. But I say to you that I came expressly for you in this situation.  Be not dismayed; I am here with you because there are other things that you need to move ahead on. Don’t try to force anything open, but seek My Wisdom and Guidance in everything. Do not become so obsessed with that which seems to be clogged or blocked, that you miss the new thing I am trying to do in your life.

You must stop thinking negative, and stop allowing the enemy to control your thoughts. When you allow the enemy to control your thinking it only reinforces the enemy’s control over your life. Refuse to speak the dark words that so easily come to mind.  I know frustrations and trials have left you downcast and weary, and discouragement has crept in upon you overnight. But, now is the time for you to turn to Me in utter humility. Now is the time for you to do spiritual warfare to break hindrances and bind hindering forces. Now is the time for you to seek My face like never before, and confess every sin, even sins of doubt, fear and anxiety.  For when you do, then I will hear from Heaven and lift you out and over every obstacle the enemy has tried to hinder you with,

Letter From God

Hold on to me Daughter


Hold on to me God
Please don’t let go
It’s not that I don’t believe
but it’s like I have ADD
darting to and fro

Although it’s all things that glorify,
represent, and exalt your name
I don’t want to be a fan,
follower, or cheerleader
Most importantly I’m scared to bring you

I hear the murmurs now,
“Is she serious?”
“Why is she going to the extreme?”
“Just six months ago she was in the club
drinking, smoking, and crying over Kareem”

I’m hoping and can only imagine God’s response:
“Daughter you are right, six months ago that was you
but I wiped that filth off
you and made you clean.”

“Whether six months, six days, six minutes
you still chose me.
Run faster my love and
I will continue to give you

Who cares what they say? Not I
and I am the King. You want
to talk well Precious I am listening.
Cry, scream, vent, mumble, or sing
whatever you want to communicate
baby girl I am listening.

It will be alright. It will get
Trusting and believing in me is not
an easy thing. I know you are strong tho.
I built you stronger than
“Ford Tough.”

Give yourself grace it took
a while for you to get here.
I know who you are,
where you are, and
it is not a scheme.You long for me like
I have longed for you.
Don’t worry about other people just
Hold on to Me!

Mary Mary- Can’t Give Up Now

Not sure how I am feeling: Anxious, Excited, Nervous…….

But this song always helps me.

Spending $10,000

I was speaking with a friend last week who gave me a thought to ponder. She said that we have at least 10,000 a thoughts a day!


This response was stirred up because I was saying maintaining positive thoughts were my focus but I struggled because so many negative thoughts consumed me.

I started really thinking how many of the 10,000 thoughts were negative? I am sure more than half. For the week, I took time to really examine how I was thinking and talking to myself and you know what?

I am mean! I am hard on myself. I would never talk to anyone else that way so why am I doing it to myself? At first I did it as a tactic to jump start myself but I realized that made me feel bad.

I like soothing motivation that includes reason, compassion, and understanding. Not the demeaning, chastising voice I was using in my own mind.

She went on to ask, “If you had $10,000 how would you spend it?”

The list goes on and on about what I could do with that amount right now!

She told me to think of those thoughts in the same manner. You can invest them in positive thoughts to enhance you or you can spend them on negative thoughts and stay stagnant.

After hearing that, how do you feel? I was thinking whoa that puts thinking in a new light!

I want to grow!
I want to invest!
I want to think happy thoughts!

So I had to go home and look in the source. I know God wants me to be happy. I know he gives clear directions on achieving this. I want to align my thoughts and life to his word.

I will share three scriptures that stood out to me:

And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. (Philippians 4:8 NLT)

Words satisfy the mind as much as fruit does the stomach; good talk is as gratifying as a good harvest. Words kill, words give life; they’re either poison or fruit—you choose. (Proverbs 18:20, 21 MSG)

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:2 NIV)

That’s refreshing! That’s comforting! It’s like ok Father I’m trusting you to help fill my mind with these thoughts and change my mind.

It wasn’t a surprise when another friend announced she is doing a 30 day challenge to think positive of yourself, and she asked her friends to join. I said, “Sign me up!”

So I’m asking those reading to join as well. I’m asking to use the minimum 10,000 thoughts a day for good not evil.


Flee to your Future

Do not let the future be held hostage by the past. – Neal A Maxwell

Most of the time we cannot move forward because we allow other’s views or thoughts dictate whether we walk into our blessings.  By other’s I also mean our “former” selves.

You are sick and tired of being sick and tired, you have decided to change, and made up in your mind you want to experience a new “Me”!  One problem: Everywhere you turn (including the mirror) you are reminded of the past.

God knows your different.
You think different.
You feel different.
You see different.
You know and believe that God says your different.

You try to encourage yourself or others.
You offer assistance and ask for help.

Then God points you in his direction! I started crying when I read this because David was like my soul brother he knew exactly what i was feeling.

Psalm 31- The Message

31 1-2 I run to you, God; I run for dear life.
Don’t let me down!
Take me seriously this time!
Get down on my level and listen,
and please—no procrastination!
Your granite cave a hiding place,
your high cliff aerie a place of safety.

3-5 You’re my cave to hide in,
my cliff to climb.
Be my safe leader,
be my true mountain guide.
Free me from hidden traps;
I want to hide in you.
I’ve put my life in your hands.
You won’t drop me,
you’ll never let me down.

6-13 I hate all this silly religion,
but you, God, I trust.
I’m leaping and singing in the circle of your love;
you saw my pain,
you disarmed my tormentors,
You didn’t leave me in their clutches
but gave me room to breathe.
Be kind to me, God—
I’m in deep, deep trouble again.
I’ve cried my eyes out;
I feel hollow inside.
My life leaks away, groan by groan;
my years fade out in sighs.
My troubles have worn me out,
turned my bones to powder.
To my enemies I’m a monster;
I’m ridiculed by the neighbors.
My friends are horrified;
they cross the street to avoid me.
They want to blot me from memory,
forget me like a corpse in a grave,
discard me like a broken dish in the trash.
The street-talk gossip has me
“criminally insane”!
Behind locked doors they plot
how to ruin me for good.

14-18 Desperate, I throw myself on you:
you are my God!
Hour by hour I place my days in your hand,
safe from the hands out to get me.
Warm me, your servant, with a smile;
save me because you love me.
Don’t embarrass me by not showing up;
I’ve given you plenty of notice.
Embarrass the wicked, stand them up,
leave them stupidly shaking their heads
as they drift down to hell.
Gag those loudmouthed liars
who heckle me, your follower,
with jeers and catcalls.

19-22 What a stack of blessing you have piled up
for those who worship you,
Ready and waiting for all who run to you
to escape an unkind world.
You hide them safely away
from the opposition.
As you slam the door on those oily, mocking faces,
you silence the poisonous gossip.
Blessed God!
His love is the wonder of the world.
Trapped by a siege, I panicked.
“Out of sight, out of mind,” I said.
But you heard me say it,
you heard and listened.

23 Love God, all you saints;
God takes care of all who stay close to him,
But he pays back in full
those arrogant enough to go it alone.

24 Be brave. Be strong. Don’t give up.
Expect God to get here soon.


I have had writer’s block for about a week so. I would lay in the bed and think sheesh I know I should say something but what? I have been stuck because after my last post I was thinking I am so stuck on living by a check list. This is a good thing but a bad thing as well. When I have tried to apply this in life before, it has gotten me to the point in life I am in now. I was living life one bullet point at a time but missing the heading. I have discovered the heading is god and everything else is the subtitle. The difference is now after reflecting for this week I have come to this conclusion.

At church we are currently studying a series: AMAZING. We are focusing on the book of Mark and examining how Jesus was simply AMAZING. From the sermon I notated a scripture “He replied, “Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you hypocrites; as it is written: These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. They worship me in vain; their teachings are merely human rules. You have let go of the commands of God and are holding on to human traditions.” Mark 7:6-8 (NIV) This caused me to ponder, “From my Discipline post was I make a checklist based on stereotypes or am I really getting to know who Jesus is and why I worship God?”

I was really thinking and reflecting on this for the past week. From this I was able to gather 3 wants that can be easily fulfilled by my own actions.Image

I want to have a deeper relationship with Him.

I want to be an example of His love.

I want to love Him for Him and not what He can do for me.

I realized that I have been hard on myself and that it is all a process. I just want the relationship to be genuine. I realized that acknowledging that He is the Lord and wanting to be used by Him and give myself away is Step 1. To support this I came across, “Then he said to the crowd, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me.” Luke 9:23 (NLT) This comforted me because I felt relieved that I was giving up being selfish and wanting to control my life and allowing myself to be at His will. This reflection allowed me to see that daily I was still seeking Him. I was distraught but I was still coming to Him and this was Step 2.

I then remembered Psalms 139:14, “I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.”(KJV) Forgiveness and acceptance is key. I will thank God for allowing me to start thinking about purpose, intent, and reasoning. It definitely beats living all willy nilly and over the place! I am a great work of AWESOMENESS! I have good qualities. Who am I to judge God’s masterpieces? I need to open my eyes and see what is in my own face, see what is looking back at me. My soul knows this is just getting the mind to follow suit, BUT it is a work in progress.

This led me to the next scripture, But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.” John 1:12-13 (ESV) I recognized that He chose me and I chose Him. This was mutual. I am a winner. He wanted me on His team. He picked me. I accepted. I am ecstatic He didn’t give up! I love knowing I am His child. I like to envision being rocked in His arms like a baby, like His child.

I just laughed to myself because this is so parallel to my real life and I just REALIZED this while I was typing this. Reflection is deep. I didn’t have a close relationship with my real father and I am getting to know him currently just like my spiritual father. Man life is real. I know He (Spiritual & Biological Father) loves me but I really have to get to know HIM as a person. So every try to get closer is a start, a step, a move, new beginning, interaction and the key is to keep coming back for more 🙂

So my question, “From my Discipline post was I make a checklist based on stereotypes or am I really getting to know who Jesus is and why I worship God?” was answered.

Yes I am getting to know Jesus and why i worship Him.

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