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Out with the OLD, In with the NEW


So now that you know God (or should I say, now that God knows you), why do you want to go back again and become slaves once more to the weak and useless spiritual principles of this world? Galatians 4:9

As a continuation of the call of action our congregation had last month to study a chapter of proverbs a day. I began studying Galatians as a follow up. As I state on my About me page Galatians 1:10 was one of my first scriptures I memorized, so that’s why I chose it. The word states: “Obviously, I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant.” This scripture is so powerful! After getting more into the book of Galatians I realized it is kind of like a mirror. You know I’m saying that a lot these days after reading my book. (That’s what I call the Bible).

Paul writes to us (the Christians) in this book letting us know that we are delivered by our faith. He shares what the earlier law stated about sacrifices and doing works for salvation and then he switches gears and tells about how we don’t have to be bound be that old stuff! He shares again, as the Bible continually does, that because Jesus died for us we are free! We live in remembrance of Him through believing. He compares how life was before the covenant and what it is like after.

Galatians is another declaration for us to keep moving forward into the light. We can remember where we were prior to God and our thoughts of who He is now. I don’t know about you but that is reflection. He is definitely bigger and has more depth in my eyes and life. I had…..well have hang ups that are still being worked on but studying this book helps me to remember the price that was paid. I think about all of the things the old law said and I am relieved that God loved me soooo much He wanted a one on one relationship through Jesus with Me! Galatians helps put everything into perspective.

It’s still like a double edge sword because I see where my focus should be and my actions are swayed to go another way. I was a people pleaser that hated confrontation. I tried to avoid it at all costs. I know as Brothers and Sisters in Christ and with people of the world “iron sharpens iron” but shoot I like to think I’m iron but realistically I’m more like silly putty. I even had to go back and change the tense of the earlier sentence because I know my Father is working on this. I know this is where God wants me to turn away from my old self and be more like Him.

I can sense God is telling me “Keep straight stop turning around. Do you see where turning around and the old way has gotten you? Try my way.”

What is God asking you to turn away and focus on? What are you doing that may not be pleasing Him but is pleasing for someone else? What is your “old” that needs to be replaced with a new?


Letter From God

Hold on to me Daughter


Hold on to me God
Please don’t let go
It’s not that I don’t believe
but it’s like I have ADD
darting to and fro

Although it’s all things that glorify,
represent, and exalt your name
I don’t want to be a fan,
follower, or cheerleader
Most importantly I’m scared to bring you

I hear the murmurs now,
“Is she serious?”
“Why is she going to the extreme?”
“Just six months ago she was in the club
drinking, smoking, and crying over Kareem”

I’m hoping and can only imagine God’s response:
“Daughter you are right, six months ago that was you
but I wiped that filth off
you and made you clean.”

“Whether six months, six days, six minutes
you still chose me.
Run faster my love and
I will continue to give you

Who cares what they say? Not I
and I am the King. You want
to talk well Precious I am listening.
Cry, scream, vent, mumble, or sing
whatever you want to communicate
baby girl I am listening.

It will be alright. It will get
Trusting and believing in me is not
an easy thing. I know you are strong tho.
I built you stronger than
“Ford Tough.”

Give yourself grace it took
a while for you to get here.
I know who you are,
where you are, and
it is not a scheme.You long for me like
I have longed for you.
Don’t worry about other people just
Hold on to Me!


This morning I am on my way to the train to be reunited with God again… But not again maybe for the first time really.

See I was baptized in 2007 but did my life change?…. No

I knew I wanted to make Jesus my Savior but I did not make Him my Lord. I knew going to a Baptist church this is what I had to do.

I attended new member classes Saturday morning and Saturday night I was at someone’s club smoking and getting drunk and involved in whatever other sinful acts I engaged in.

It wasn’t that I didn’t want to change or didn’t love Jesus. I simply was not ready and not equipped to take Jesus out of Church and put in front leading my life all day. I slowly faded away from “that life.”

In 2010 during college, I began to study again and going to church faithfully. I began volunteering for multiple ministries, going to bible study, tithing, sharing my faith, inviting others to church, and fellow shipping. My “checklist” was complete. I was also involved with Intervarsity which was our campus ministry.

Nevertheless, I was still missing an integral piece of the puzzle….. God!
I still did not know Him personally.

I would pray, but I did not have quiet time.

I would study, but only in groups not on my own.

I kept my “church” life separate from my “personal” life.
Eventually I strayed away again.

Fortunately, 6 years later God still had his hand on me. Today, I look out the window of this metro train to reflect on how far He has brought me.

I am thankful to be a part of an outstanding ministry at DC Regional Church in Washington DC, to be a part of Synergy our encouraging singles ministry, and most importantly to be a disciple of God’s Kingdom.

God called me and I answered. Today I am getting baptized , today:

1. All my sin will be forgiven
And now, why wait any longer? Get up and be baptized and have your sins washed away by praying to him.’ (Acts 22:16 GNT)

2. Enter the Body of Christ
In the same way, all of us, whether Jews or Gentiles, whether slaves or free, have been baptized into the one body by the same Spirit, and we have all been given the one Spirit to drink. (1 Corinthians 12:13 GNT)

3. Receive the gift of the Holy Spirit
….And this water was a symbol pointing to baptism, which now saves you. It is not the washing off of bodily dirt, but the promise made to God from a good conscience. It saves you through the resurrection of Jesus Christ, (1 Peter 3:21 GNT)

So I conclude today I will be getting baptized….again…only this time FULLY aware of my decision and commitment.

There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling; One Lord, one faith, one baptism, One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all. (Ephesians 4:4-6 KJV)


Ask for Assistance

One thing I am really learning with reconnecting with God is that He wants to be involved. He wants me to know He is providing all things.

It’s amazing the things He does and how He makes things happen that you can’t explain.

I now know this is because He doesn’t want it to be confused. He is the Provider, Supplier, and Director of this thing called life.

I was hired at Dulles Airport working for United Airlines. I was so happy for that position. The only thing is it took months to do the interview process. I decided to apply for a temporary position until my position began.

I went to the interview under the impression it would start the next day. After interviewing, I thanked them for the opportunity and allowing me to find out more about the organization. It didn’t work because the position I was filling would start for 3 days and then I would return once the employee’s wife had her baby.

Well 2 hours later I received a phone call that they had another position specifically for ME! I began that position August 6th. That same morning someone broke my window to my car and stole my wallet. To me, this meant this was the job God had for me and the devil was trying to detour me.

The reason I gave you this background information was to let you know how God wants his hand in everything. I turned down the position at the airport because this one paid more, was metro accessible, working for a purpose, learning the non profit environment, the co workers, and the opportunities for growth. I just showed up. I thought it was over because they did not fit my criteria, but I fit theirs!

I say this to share that I love my job and last week I applied for a permanent position. A co worker advised me to look into the Jabez Prayer. Boy am I glad I did! I took 30 minutes to meditate on this and pray for God’s guidance and hand in the decision
making process.

The Prayer of Jabez comes from the Bible. In 1 Chronicles 4:10, we read: “And Jabez called on the God of Israel, saying, Oh that Thou wouldest bless me indeed, and enlarge my coast, and that Thine hand might be with me, and that Thou wouldest keep me from evil, that it may not grieve me! And God granted him that which he requested.” The prayer is composed of four parts. First, Jabez asks God to bless him. Second, he asks God to enlarge his territory or increase his responsibility. Third, he prays that God will be with him and stay close. Lastly, Jabez asks that God keep him from harm so that he will be free from pain.

Jabez Prayer

Can I take it with me?

I enjoy peace and serenity.
I enjoy helping others.
I enjoy thinking positive.
I enjoy equality and social justice.
I enjoy allowing God to drive.

Until I leave the “building” of church.

Until I am by myself.

Until I enter the “real” world.

For the longest I thought, “God is so good, only if I could take this with me.”

Well, you know what I realized? I can. You can.

The Bible says, “And what union can there be between God’s temple and idols? For we are the temple of the living God. As God said: “I will live in them and walk among them. I will be their God, and they will be my people.”(2 Corinthians 6:16 NLT)

To think God is in me. Am I giving him a good place to dwell? Ummm probably not. If I was in my mind would I want to be in there? Unfortunately, no.

To be honest, if someone talks to me I am analyzing every bit of the conversation. The body language, facial expressions, linguistics, influx of their tone, and trying to reason or say what if:

What if they don’t mean that.
What if they aren’t like that.
What if you stopped worrying.
What if you are just being negative.

In actuality, I am saying this to myself while processing what the conversation is ultimately about.

I figure in the flow of a conversation you have about 1-3 seconds to respond. So if I’m registering what you said and thinking of my response, when do I have time to think of my “old” way of thinking and replace it and vocally respond with a thought?

I think this would take at least 5-7 seconds…at least.
Seriously though, this takes time as well.

So I ask, how do you have a conversation like this? If God has your mind and thoughts “Under Construction” how do you relate to others without simply not talking?

I read James 3 to get an idea of taming my tongue. From that I gathered I can’t do both, think positive yet speak negative.

Man, that is convicting. I had to go back to the beginning of James and I leave with this:

My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you. Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do. Those who consider themselves religious and yet do not keep a tight rein on their tongues deceive themselves, and their religion is worthless. (James 1:19-26 NIV)

If you struggle with thoughts and projecting positivity although you know it exists and it is engulfed in your inner being, then join me this week being slow to speak.

Spending $10,000

I was speaking with a friend last week who gave me a thought to ponder. She said that we have at least 10,000 a thoughts a day!


This response was stirred up because I was saying maintaining positive thoughts were my focus but I struggled because so many negative thoughts consumed me.

I started really thinking how many of the 10,000 thoughts were negative? I am sure more than half. For the week, I took time to really examine how I was thinking and talking to myself and you know what?

I am mean! I am hard on myself. I would never talk to anyone else that way so why am I doing it to myself? At first I did it as a tactic to jump start myself but I realized that made me feel bad.

I like soothing motivation that includes reason, compassion, and understanding. Not the demeaning, chastising voice I was using in my own mind.

She went on to ask, “If you had $10,000 how would you spend it?”

The list goes on and on about what I could do with that amount right now!

She told me to think of those thoughts in the same manner. You can invest them in positive thoughts to enhance you or you can spend them on negative thoughts and stay stagnant.

After hearing that, how do you feel? I was thinking whoa that puts thinking in a new light!

I want to grow!
I want to invest!
I want to think happy thoughts!

So I had to go home and look in the source. I know God wants me to be happy. I know he gives clear directions on achieving this. I want to align my thoughts and life to his word.

I will share three scriptures that stood out to me:

And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. (Philippians 4:8 NLT)

Words satisfy the mind as much as fruit does the stomach; good talk is as gratifying as a good harvest. Words kill, words give life; they’re either poison or fruit—you choose. (Proverbs 18:20, 21 MSG)

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:2 NIV)

That’s refreshing! That’s comforting! It’s like ok Father I’m trusting you to help fill my mind with these thoughts and change my mind.

It wasn’t a surprise when another friend announced she is doing a 30 day challenge to think positive of yourself, and she asked her friends to join. I said, “Sign me up!”

So I’m asking those reading to join as well. I’m asking to use the minimum 10,000 thoughts a day for good not evil.



I found this in a notebook written March 29,2012

It drives me to push forward
Thinking I’m invisible
Yet not spiraling downward
But moving toward invincible

Where is my good job
No stickers for me
They say how old are you?
You are too young to be blue!

Those after me look in awe while
Those before me never saw
Setting a precedent and a law
Never giving up and sawing naw

Knowing matter factly my future
Is brighter than my cloudy past
Knowing these dark days won’t

I push forth like never before
Wanting it more and more
The lack of resources and knowledge
Is what it bore

Motivation, ambition, persistence,
Summation, cultivation, existence
Words to just you
Livelihood will do

Stomp my feet clap my hands
And give praise
Until my dying days

God revealed himself to me
And kicked me from the
Driving seat
So I buckled up just happy we could
Lift every voice and sing
Celebrate the new King
His reign is everlasting
But His love is surpassing

Why won’t you help me?
Is it because of the God in me?
I take that as a compliment
But won’t forget with every accomplishment

I shed my hurt, torment, and years
Yet you couldn’t lend a ear
My name you don’t know
No feelings is what you show

But God said love thy neighbor as
So I’ll take you off the shelf
Bless those who persecute you
Cuz they need love too

Share with those in need
And I will indeed
Cuz see I won’t shun
But you are the source to my


I have had writer’s block for about a week so. I would lay in the bed and think sheesh I know I should say something but what? I have been stuck because after my last post I was thinking I am so stuck on living by a check list. This is a good thing but a bad thing as well. When I have tried to apply this in life before, it has gotten me to the point in life I am in now. I was living life one bullet point at a time but missing the heading. I have discovered the heading is god and everything else is the subtitle. The difference is now after reflecting for this week I have come to this conclusion.

At church we are currently studying a series: AMAZING. We are focusing on the book of Mark and examining how Jesus was simply AMAZING. From the sermon I notated a scripture “He replied, “Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you hypocrites; as it is written: These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. They worship me in vain; their teachings are merely human rules. You have let go of the commands of God and are holding on to human traditions.” Mark 7:6-8 (NIV) This caused me to ponder, “From my Discipline post was I make a checklist based on stereotypes or am I really getting to know who Jesus is and why I worship God?”

I was really thinking and reflecting on this for the past week. From this I was able to gather 3 wants that can be easily fulfilled by my own actions.Image

I want to have a deeper relationship with Him.

I want to be an example of His love.

I want to love Him for Him and not what He can do for me.

I realized that I have been hard on myself and that it is all a process. I just want the relationship to be genuine. I realized that acknowledging that He is the Lord and wanting to be used by Him and give myself away is Step 1. To support this I came across, “Then he said to the crowd, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me.” Luke 9:23 (NLT) This comforted me because I felt relieved that I was giving up being selfish and wanting to control my life and allowing myself to be at His will. This reflection allowed me to see that daily I was still seeking Him. I was distraught but I was still coming to Him and this was Step 2.

I then remembered Psalms 139:14, “I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.”(KJV) Forgiveness and acceptance is key. I will thank God for allowing me to start thinking about purpose, intent, and reasoning. It definitely beats living all willy nilly and over the place! I am a great work of AWESOMENESS! I have good qualities. Who am I to judge God’s masterpieces? I need to open my eyes and see what is in my own face, see what is looking back at me. My soul knows this is just getting the mind to follow suit, BUT it is a work in progress.

This led me to the next scripture, But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.” John 1:12-13 (ESV) I recognized that He chose me and I chose Him. This was mutual. I am a winner. He wanted me on His team. He picked me. I accepted. I am ecstatic He didn’t give up! I love knowing I am His child. I like to envision being rocked in His arms like a baby, like His child.

I just laughed to myself because this is so parallel to my real life and I just REALIZED this while I was typing this. Reflection is deep. I didn’t have a close relationship with my real father and I am getting to know him currently just like my spiritual father. Man life is real. I know He (Spiritual & Biological Father) loves me but I really have to get to know HIM as a person. So every try to get closer is a start, a step, a move, new beginning, interaction and the key is to keep coming back for more 🙂

So my question, “From my Discipline post was I make a checklist based on stereotypes or am I really getting to know who Jesus is and why I worship God?” was answered.

Yes I am getting to know Jesus and why i worship Him.

I Am A Christian

I Am A Christian

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Brand Spankin’ New

“This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!” 2 Corinthians 5:17 (NLT)

This is a fitting scripture to begin this blog with go to the About Me Page to find out!