Jumbled Mess

You know when everything is scattered

and the thing you are really looking for

the one thing that really mattered

looks all tattered

torn in shreds

and is battered

but is hidden in a jumbled mess

it may not be the best

but it’s nothing like the rest

however its hidden

just watching you

not wanting to be found

not looking to be bound

so under those piles and mounds

are more and more layers and

pounds, don’t worry none are

from you, although if you want…..

You know when everything is scattered

and the thing you are really looking for

the one thing that really mattered

looks all tattered

torn in shreds

and is battered

you have to sift, sort, and clean up that jumbled mess


Faith of a Mustard Seed

This weekend as I moved into my own place, I reflected on how I arrived here. I prayed for this place to become available and naively didn’t believe it would. I had the faith my situation would change but not what I asked for exactly!

I lacked unwavering and sound faith and was blindly walking into unchartered waters: The calm current of God’s love and Him providing for me.

Coming from asking a now fellow disciple to stay one night after only meeting her three times, sleeping in my car outside of Starbucks, staying with another new friend for a week who I had known only for maybe a month, going to a shelter for three weeks, and asking my same “new” friend if I could come back. I wound up staying with her for almost 3 months.

The tunnel was looking dim and bleak, however there was light at the end of the tunnel.

This has definitely been a journey. One of patience, hope, humbleness, faith, prayer, and trust.

To think back now on that prayer that was sent up and the blessing God has poured down, I am at a place of serenity knowing He heard me.

The word says, “You don’t have enough faith,” Jesus told them. “I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible.” Matthew 17:20 NLT

I can honestly say that is what I had, the faith of a mustard seed. I was a new disciple and did not know the power I possessed. ( I still don’t know the full capacity) I told my mountain to move and said what I wanted. God provided the rest! He actually provided more. Wow!

Luke 17:6 NLT adds, “The Lord answered, “If you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘May you be uprooted and thrown into the sea,’ and it would obey you!”

To actually see God’s word alive and living is astonishing.

To know that God fulfills his promises are empowering.

Thank you God. I marvel at your magnificence.

I’m speechless and at awe because of your love, grace, and most importantly mercy.


He Wants It All

How I have been feeling all week. Enjoy!

You can have it Father! I love you with more than my heart.

Writer’s Block

It’s so hard to write daily or weekly is what I always complain

but I let things get so pent up and then who’s to blame?

Always comparing their eloquent writings and wondrous word play

to my jibber jabber, basic rhymes, struggling to depict  what to say

until I have talked myself out of posting

what a shame


Words stuck behind the flashing red and orange signs

alarming “Construction Ahead”

slamming directly into a wall made of blocks in brick red


Paragraphs playing offense with the lines of the document

however my mind has the best running back and nothing is getting past

lined up at the fourth down defense not moving like cement


Better yet going up for alley oop

antonyms arriving, synonyms singing, and metaphors milling

only to have have that one blocked too, just another tally


Sweet talk

Small talk

Around the clock

Writer’s Block

Fall Leaves




I can hear you God

the wisps between each leaf

as you blow through the trees


I can hear you God

the pitter patter of the crunchy leaf

flipping across the courtyard


I can hear you God

floating across the fountain

as the leaf gurgles in the water


I can hear you God

folding over in the flower pot

because the air is so crisp & brisk


I can hear you God

changing yet again, another year

green,red, orange, yellow, brown

until nothing is left but another year

Spiritual Warfare: #TeamJesus


I remember watching this in St. Louis about a month or two before I moved to DC. I would say maybe two weeks after that the church I was attending, New Life Community Church in East St. Louis, did a similar performance. I think back on it now and know it was nothing but God. What were the odds of seeing a youtube video and attending service to see the same thing! I was fired up after that! He let me know i was not too far removed. He was still fighting for me. I had to fight to be with Him also.

I am glad that I am putting forth the fight. I want my faith, i believe in my faith, and i am my faith.

While I was attending New Life we were studying a series on “Spiritual Warfare.” The text we were reading from was Ephesians-6:10-18

” A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil.  For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.

Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.”  (NLT)

We must understand we are fighting forces not of this world but in the spiritual realm. It is real and we do have a say so in our actions and outcomes. We can change. We are not strong enough in our physical being but with God we can WIN. Jesus died so that we can have intimacy with God, so our sins are forgiven, and provide eternal life.

I urge you to watch the video again and think about your own life. Your sins are not too much. God still loves you. It will be hard, but He has the strength you do not have. He has already forgiven you. Forgive yourself. He wants a relationship with you. Do you believe in Jesus? Are you living for Him? Whose side are you on?


Text Message to God!

God 143!

CHRISTian poetry ~ by deborah ann

Text Message to God ~ CHRISTian poetry by deborah ann

Lord, I need to have a 121
as soon as possible
I wish we could meet F2F
but that would be impossible.

I need to talk to You PDQ,
as I need some direction
please answer me ASAYGT
with Your divine reflection.

I know You will get this MSG,
as soon as I send it off to You
I just need to get Your GA
with what You want me to do.

I guess I’ll just have to W8,
until this message You see
this SLAP to me
and I know You will agree.

Thank You for Your POV,
for it won’t steer me wrong
I will be W4U
but please don’t take too long!

 ♥ and heavenly (  )’s

Your BFF



121= One to One
F2F = Face to Face
PDQ = Pretty Darn Quick
ASAYGT = As Soon As You Get This
MSG = Message

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All credit belongs to this website. I found this months ago but it is still on my Bookmark and I read it from time to time.  Just wanted to share! Enjoy!



Where you are now, is not where you are going to be.  Be prepared to move as the Spirit leads.  Don’t become so complacent that you don’t want to accept change.  That is what the enemy will use against you, and use it he will.  You must refuse to allow the enemy to paralyze you with obstruction.  He hasn’t stopped you from moving forward, it’s only a delay and if you look closely it’s only in certain areas of your life. The areas you thought he would never strike, the areas you left unprotected.

All this has left you indecisive and uncertain of so many things. The fear of making the wrong choices has slowed  your pace. But I say to you that I came expressly for you in this situation.  Be not dismayed; I am here with you because there are other things that you need to move ahead on. Don’t try to force anything open, but seek My Wisdom and Guidance in everything. Do not become so obsessed with that which seems to be clogged or blocked, that you miss the new thing I am trying to do in your life.

You must stop thinking negative, and stop allowing the enemy to control your thoughts. When you allow the enemy to control your thinking it only reinforces the enemy’s control over your life. Refuse to speak the dark words that so easily come to mind.  I know frustrations and trials have left you downcast and weary, and discouragement has crept in upon you overnight. But, now is the time for you to turn to Me in utter humility. Now is the time for you to do spiritual warfare to break hindrances and bind hindering forces. Now is the time for you to seek My face like never before, and confess every sin, even sins of doubt, fear and anxiety.  For when you do, then I will hear from Heaven and lift you out and over every obstacle the enemy has tried to hinder you with,

Letter From God

Hold on to me Daughter


Hold on to me God
Please don’t let go
It’s not that I don’t believe
but it’s like I have ADD
darting to and fro

Although it’s all things that glorify,
represent, and exalt your name
I don’t want to be a fan,
follower, or cheerleader
Most importantly I’m scared to bring you

I hear the murmurs now,
“Is she serious?”
“Why is she going to the extreme?”
“Just six months ago she was in the club
drinking, smoking, and crying over Kareem”

I’m hoping and can only imagine God’s response:
“Daughter you are right, six months ago that was you
but I wiped that filth off
you and made you clean.”

“Whether six months, six days, six minutes
you still chose me.
Run faster my love and
I will continue to give you

Who cares what they say? Not I
and I am the King. You want
to talk well Precious I am listening.
Cry, scream, vent, mumble, or sing
whatever you want to communicate
baby girl I am listening.

It will be alright. It will get
Trusting and believing in me is not
an easy thing. I know you are strong tho.
I built you stronger than
“Ford Tough.”

Give yourself grace it took
a while for you to get here.
I know who you are,
where you are, and
it is not a scheme.You long for me like
I have longed for you.
Don’t worry about other people just
Hold on to Me!

Letter to my Father

God, I thank You that even though You see my mistakes, You still love me and help me live a godly life. While I refuse to be discouraged by my failures, I also refuse to stay the same. I choose to follow You and imitate You more and more each day.

Your Daughter

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