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Are you there God?

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Many times we ask God is He there. We want to know if He is listening, does He hear our requests? Will He answer our requests? I say YES! YES! YES! I remember as a kid well shoot sometimes as an adult I have made crazy requests, ” God if you there let me win a million dollars” Most of the time though my requests are simple, like, “God if you get me out of this or that I promise I won’t do such and such again. Sometimes He comes through and other times He does not. All in all, I know that God hears….answers me… and wants me to listen.


Lately, I have been studying the story of Gideon. (James 6-8) For those that don’t know the short story is: Gideon was a young boy and God spoke to Him and told him that he would use him to deliver the Israelites from the Midianites. Gideon questioned God’s choice and told God he didn’t feel qualified. He asked God 3 TIMES to prove He would use him to save the Israelites. Each time God answered Gideon. God used Gideon just as He said he would and provided Gideon with the confidence he did not have.


God understands as humans He knows it is hard for us to trust or even fathom the thought that we are His children. But God says for us to come to Him in prayer and petition. (Philippians 4:6-  Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.) Just to think Gideon just knew He wasn’t who God said he was. (Judges 6:15-15 “But Lord, Gideon asked, “how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.) God was patient, reassuring, and confident in Gideon. God has the same love and compassion for us.


Each week at work I can think back and say to myself I don’t know how I made it through that week. I get an assignment an d have meetings and at the time at hand I’m so stressed out and confused I just know I will be fired before the week is up. But week after week I have made it through. It is only by the grace of God. I am learning my position from scratch so just like Gideon I did not feel qualified but God reassures me task after task, meeting after meeting. I don’t know where my current job is taking me but I’m learning while I can.


Additionally, i know God has called me to write. To write what I’m not sure. I know this blog is part of it but beyond that I am clueless. I keep telling myself that I am not the good or no one is reading it or it’s not changing lives. I have 50 million excuses. What I am realizing now is that I do it for me. It gives me that time to study, focus on God, and bring Him glory. As you can see my writing has been slacking. I used to post weekly but it slowly dwindled down. I know God has been telling me to sit down and do this and I finally have. The push has been other possible writing opportunities may arise so I know this is training for what is to come so i am being obedient.


He is calling all of us to do more….be more….help more….serve more…. and be more like Him. If we don’t feel confident enough in the task He is calling you to do remember (Isaiah 55:8-9- “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth,so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts) God adds, “…….So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.” God’s word is bond and does not come back void.


So walk boldly and confidently into what God has been telling you to do that you have been running from. For me it is has been this blog post and see I produced it!


Psalm 16:8-11: Power Up your inner strength

I know the lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me. No wonder my heart is glad, and I rejoice. My body rests in safety. For you will not leave my soul among the dead or allow your holy one to rot in the grave. You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures
of living with you forever. (Psalms 16:8-11 NLT)

After reading this doesn’t a sense of peace just wash over you? To know despite your mess and where you are now God is not leaving you to “rot in the grave.” God’s promises always set me at ease. His ultimate example of love, of having Jesus martyred for our sins, and then have Him rise from the dead makes me feel forever indebted. I can never do everything right but I can attempt to live righteously.

So even when I know I may mess up, I know He knew it would happen and has already provided a way out. Jesus says, “The Father alone has the authority to set those dates and times, and they are not for you to know.” (Acts of the Apostles 1:7 NLT) He knew when Judas would betray Him, and He knew would I fall as well. However as the bible is my instruction for life I try to live like a David as a woman after God’s own heart. As a child of God, I know He will pick me up when I fall. I know as a follower of Jesus temptation will come but I have an inner strength to tap into to see me through……. Have you tapped into your inner strength? Do you know you don’t have to be shaken because The Lord is with you? Do you trust God to show you the way?

Isaiah 43:18-19: Get out of the trash!

“Forget the former things;
    do not dwell on the past.
 See, I am doing a new thing!
    Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
    and streams in the wasteland.

Isaiah 43:18-19


There are many times in our lives we find ourselves chugging along when something from our past smacks us in the face. This could be old habits, relationships, or just simply stinking thinking. Whatever it may be, it deters us from the ultimate plan or what God has in store for us. After reading this passage again this week, it had a whole new meaning for me and I hope by sharing with you it does for you as well.


As I was struggling this week with smoking cigarettes I needed this scripture to help me abort the destructive mission I was about to partake in. I remember describing the action to a friend as “sifting through the trash God has already cleaned up.” You see God delivered me from smoking back in August and for unknown reason I had a craving and a urge. I regretfully gave in for 3 weeks. I prayed by myself, I prayed with friends, and I tried to quit again. Somehow this stronghold was back and I could not shake it.That was until one day I was so sick. I did not know why but I felt completely horrible. I prayed again but this time earnestly because I wanted God to know I could not go through this again.


He spoke to me and reminded me of this scripture. I immediately felt calmer and slept the rest of the day. I have not smoked since. I know God is trying to do something new in my life and I must get out of His way to allow it to happen. I ask if there are things or people in your life that you know are stopping you from going to the next level or God already removed them from your life…..don’t go back….Can’t you see He is doing something new for you?

The Blood

Trapped, Frozen, Stagnant

Not moving but somewhere to go

Nothing holding you back

A flower that won’t grow


Is won’t the correct term?

Can’t couldn’t want, stop

The list could go on from the

Internal roadblocks placed between

Me and there


Unable to relish in real time joy

Because that voice inside you

Uses that as a ploy

To bring you down as fast as

You got up


Fighting for your life

Literally fighting for your life

Your brain is the most important muscle

In your body but it’s confused

Thinking and believing you will lose

But your heart, your heart



Your heart is beneficial, necessary, integral

For life pumping blood the source

To end all strife


It was the blood, His blood that has delivered

You and me, he and she

We are covered, He has suffered so

Our dreams deferred could be


The future and the plans promised to us

Will manifest, we will complete the conquest,

Despite the many rests


What is planned for you is for you

It does not include failure and destruction

Trust in the Lord with all your might

Leaning on His understanding and instruction

Guaranteeing you peace for all the inner

Turmoil will ultimately cease


Strength in God

Have you ever asked God “Why Me?”

Have you ever thought, “I don’t have a clue how to get out of this situation.”

Or just summed it up, “God you have to perform a miracle to make _______ happen.”

Well I have been there, done that. I’m at the place now of waiting and needing endurance while sitting in this waiting room.

The word says, For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13 NLT) This lets us know that everything is possible and not to draw on ourselves to get through. I like to visualize God as that extra battery pack. He has the full charge to get us through. God wants to be the battery pack so that we remember to worship and share his glory. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. (Psalms 23:3 NLT)

There are traits you want to have to tap into this source: trust, humbleness, and a seeking heart. God wants us to depend on Him and he will provide for us. We just have to be willing to come.

Seek–Search for the Lord and for his strength; continually seek him. (1 Chronicles 16:11 NLT)

Humble–He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. (Isaiah 40:29 NLT)

Trust–But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31 NLT)

Once we have accomplished these traits and hand out situations over to God we gain a sense of peace and calmness—-just by trusting and loving The Lord.

I love you, Lord; you are my strength. (Psalms 18:1 NLT)

Out with the OLD, In with the NEW


So now that you know God (or should I say, now that God knows you), why do you want to go back again and become slaves once more to the weak and useless spiritual principles of this world? Galatians 4:9

As a continuation of the call of action our congregation had last month to study a chapter of proverbs a day. I began studying Galatians as a follow up. As I state on my About me page Galatians 1:10 was one of my first scriptures I memorized, so that’s why I chose it. The word states: “Obviously, I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant.” This scripture is so powerful! After getting more into the book of Galatians I realized it is kind of like a mirror. You know I’m saying that a lot these days after reading my book. (That’s what I call the Bible).

Paul writes to us (the Christians) in this book letting us know that we are delivered by our faith. He shares what the earlier law stated about sacrifices and doing works for salvation and then he switches gears and tells about how we don’t have to be bound be that old stuff! He shares again, as the Bible continually does, that because Jesus died for us we are free! We live in remembrance of Him through believing. He compares how life was before the covenant and what it is like after.

Galatians is another declaration for us to keep moving forward into the light. We can remember where we were prior to God and our thoughts of who He is now. I don’t know about you but that is reflection. He is definitely bigger and has more depth in my eyes and life. I had…..well have hang ups that are still being worked on but studying this book helps me to remember the price that was paid. I think about all of the things the old law said and I am relieved that God loved me soooo much He wanted a one on one relationship through Jesus with Me! Galatians helps put everything into perspective.

It’s still like a double edge sword because I see where my focus should be and my actions are swayed to go another way. I was a people pleaser that hated confrontation. I tried to avoid it at all costs. I know as Brothers and Sisters in Christ and with people of the world “iron sharpens iron” but shoot I like to think I’m iron but realistically I’m more like silly putty. I even had to go back and change the tense of the earlier sentence because I know my Father is working on this. I know this is where God wants me to turn away from my old self and be more like Him.

I can sense God is telling me “Keep straight stop turning around. Do you see where turning around and the old way has gotten you? Try my way.”

What is God asking you to turn away and focus on? What are you doing that may not be pleasing Him but is pleasing for someone else? What is your “old” that needs to be replaced with a new?

New Year, New Beginnings, New Life


Happy New Year!!!!

—–I pray for a prosperous year for all of you, that goals are completed, dreams are fulfilled, and new positive relationships are formed.

Thank you for reading and subscribing to my blog. This is one of the many accomplishments of 2013 and in 2014 there are so many planned and unplanned events. I will share a few of the typical “resolutions” and ask that you share one just so I know I am not talking to myself.

2014 New Year’s Resolutions

1. To self publish my collection of poetry by the summer

2.To lose 25 pounds

3.To become more financially literate by saving and investing

4. To become more organized and productive

5.To learn my gifts from God so that I may share them with others

What is just one of yours?

Proverbs: What Matters Most

Wisdom Literature

Wisdom Literature

For the past 22 days my Pastor asked the congregation to study Proverbs since there are 31 chapters and 31 days in the month. He explained how Proverbs is full of wisdom and a manual for life. It provides instructions for everything from finding a mate, to how to treat your family, how to budget, how to fear the Lord and more importantly—what matters most.

I didn’t realize how much this challenge has had an impact on my spiritual life. It has caused me to crack open my Bible each day for one. Whereas I did stray away and was just reading my devotional thinking that was enough, reading proverbs everyday has peaked my hunger for knowledge again. I am continually reading and tying together previous scriptures I have read. Another advantage is that I am being cut. The word says “For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires.” Hebrews 4:12 This is so true! I am reading like ooooh…..awwwwww…….ehhhh


I want to be more like God so I am thankful to be reading this instruction manual at the beginning of my Christian walk.

A few scriptures that I have stood out to me thus far is:

Fear of the LORD is the foundation of true knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline 1:7

Wisdom will save you from evil people, from those whose words are twisted.2:12

Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding, Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.3:5-6

For the LORD sees clearly what a man does, examining every path he takes. 5:21

Take a lesson from the ants, you lazybones. Learn from their ways and become wise! 6:6

I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me.8:17

A generous person will prosper; whoever refreshes others will be refreshed 11:25

Commit your actions to the LORD, and your plans will succeed. 16:3

Houses and wealth are inherited from parents, but a prudent wife is from the LORD. 19:14

Don’t say, “I will get even for this wrong.” Wait for the LORD to handle the matter. 20:22

Don’t befriend angry people or associate with hot-tempered people, 22:24

What is Grace?

I heard of this thing called Grace

and everyone is talking about it.

They even have a song about it,

have you heard it Amazing Grace?


I long to get some of it but I’m being selfish

you have given me a taste.

But Father O God is it wrong to ask for a buffett?


You speak about greed and that’s a trait we shouldn’t have

but if you look in my heart

You are a mate I couldn’t have.


It wasn’t your choice but mines

because I wanted to act a fool

and push you behind.


I always knew there would come a time

when you would turn my head

It’s like that forbidden love that one’s heart

could never shed


But there is a difference!


You are giving it freely well,

What is the problem?

What can’t I see?


I say I surrender, all praises go to you, you have spared me,

shown mercy, delivered me, and

yet you still aren’t through


Lord what do you want me to do? Tell me and I will

Remove me from situations not to be tempted

so I can hear  only from you


I am begging for relationship like I have done so many times in this fleshly world

You said you were different and I can experience true love through you and your word

Well God you made me so you know what it takes to make nothing not shake me

I want you to wrap me in your arms and never let go

and I vow that in return I will share your goodness bringing more to the Kingdom letting all your righteousness show

Use me God as an example let me be the pawn, elevate me to the Queen with elegance and brawn.

You are magnificent my God thank you for showing your face.

Showing mercy on me.

now God where’s that Grace?


DCRCC Women’s Retreat- Seek, Pray, Love

“Growing is Knowing”

This was a quote that was spoken during the opening lesson for DC Regional Christian Church Women’s Retreat. This was my first Women’s Retreat and I did not know what to expect.As I looked around the room of about 100 women on the first night I was in awe. So many women that love God, that enjoy fellowship, are life learners, and wanted to know more about God to share was amazing and so….ummmm… well, Empowering! I was also thinking, “Sheesh” there will be more in the morning.” I was glad to be “growing and knowing” more about God’s Kingdom.

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